A simple seeker had returned home after time out. Even Spirit seemed to have approved of family time. She had been worried that she might .. No. She knew that she did not have the power, or the will, to totally disconnect from Spirit. And she knew that He knew it, too. Another thought seemed to suggest itself, that the close relationship .. could it be called intimate? Whatever.
Spirit closed off her train of thought as if it had been as water pouring from a tap. She was impressed, as always, by His power to control, at least to some extent, her thinking. But, she complained to herself, “I am not as a water tap.”
“What were you thinking?”
“I can’t remember, exactly. Oh yes, now I do. About our relationship.”
“Yes. You were not considering it as of high value.”
She was suddenly shaken. Somehow, she must have offended her spirit teacher.
“I am neither pleased nor offended. I have long ago outgrown immature attachments to either false or sincere praise or criticism. I know my own value. Do you?”
“Do I what?” She was stalling for time, confused by what He was asking her. But the truth was that she did not know either her value or His, exactly.
“I confess that I did not express the respect that I owe you.”
“Why would you owe me respect?”
“For all that you have taught me, and for choosing to let me be a part of your mission to share your wisdom teaching.”
“It isn’t my teaching. I share what has been shared with me. But, concerning your disrespect ..”
“Have I been disrespectful?”
“Yes.”
“Perhaps I don’t know how to show respect to someone whom I can’t see. I know that it was my idea for you not to manifest in human form. But what if you placed that idea in my mind?”
“How?”
“You might have planted the suspicion in my mind that I would wonder why you manifested as you did, if you did.”
“Yes. You were concerned that I would have a motive.”
“Yes.”
“Don’t we all have a motive?”
“For what?”
“For everything we choose to do, or choose not to do.”
“Then what is the solution?”
“Trust.”
“I’m not very good at that.”
“Yes.”
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A simple seeker’s note to herself
How does one develop trust?
“In what? Or whom?”
“In myself.”
“It doesn’t come from intention to do so, unless ..”
“Unless what?”
“Unless you act consistently, more and/or less, in line with your highest capacity to do so.”
“Why capacity? and not potential?”
“One expands into the other.”
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Simple Seekers 