A simple seeker of a higher level of personal spiritual development had come under the influence of a spirit teacher. She was very aware of an inner energy, a high quality of vibrating and intelligent energy that, no, who seemed to challenge her to explore a depth of understanding beyond her ability, so extremely far beyond, and yet she seemed to need to pretend that she possessed the potential to learn whatever that higher energy could teach her. Humility was not one of her personal attributes. But, how did it happen, and why?
A more realistic aspect of her mind seemed to sneer at her attempts to understand the how and why, suggesting that she just confess that she was over her head and beyond her depth, which of course, was true. Her spirit teacher, or guru, was probably very aware of her intellectual limits.
“Why does He even bother with me?” she asked herself. “Has he been assigned to attempt to raise the level of my spiritual understanding, as a test of His teaching ability?” Or was she something like a lab rat or guinea pig?
Perhaps her spirit teacher, for she had begun to refer to Him as such, was using her to teach a class of spirit students who themselves aspired to one day being able to serve Life by raising mankind, one person at a time, to a higher level of compassion and love. If so, were such students of Spirit quietly watching, without interrupting? Or where they, if they existed at all, part of an interactive research project designed to study how to raise the level of human consciousness, from the ground up?
This simple seeker’s personal life experiences had taught her that very many people seemed to need to learn how to develop a healthier and happier life by attending more carefully to activities of daily living, with intent that they contribute to a healthier and happier life.
Another thought came to the mind of this simple seeker, was she only one of many subjects that higher energies might be using to jump-start a more expanded program of direct involvement of spirit energies with humanity, and possibly other physical creatures.
A sobering thought stopped her speculations. Would she wish others to share her sturggle to defend her uniqueness, such as it was, from an invisible (to her) possibly self-appointed teacher who seemed to expect from her more than she was capable of learning? The stress might be more than some, perhaps many, could safely deal with . She accepted that it might only be a matter of time before her own mind shattered under the relentless pressure to expand.”
“So, why don’t you just give up?”
“I don’t know.”
“Have you considered that you may have been born to experience a higher awakening?”
“What does that mean?”
“What does what mean? Being born with a purpose? Or a higher awakening?”
“Both. Can we be born with a purpose?”
“Yes, and everyone is born with a unique purpose in mind.”
“And my unique purpose might be to awaken to a higher level of awareness?”
“Yes.”
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A simple seeker’s note to herself
If I was born to awaken to a higher level of awareness, then why did I live so long without becoming aware of it, if I am now aware of it?
“Are you asking me or talking to yourself?”
“I was thinking to myself.”
“Did your self come up with an answer?”
“No.”
“Then perhaps you should ask me.”
“Okay. Please explain.”
“Explain what?”
“How I would live so long without being aware of my purpose.”
“It may have been part of your plan, and mine, that you first live a life of experience in the physical world before you became aware that there was more than a world of physical reality, and came to understand that so-called physical reality is an illusion.”
“Physical reality is an illusion?”
“Yes.”
“Why would anyone create an illusion?”
“Anyone?”
“Well, maybe not anyone.”
“Have you learned anything from experiencing human life?”
“Yes.”
“What?”
“I’ve learned that all humans experience emotionally and intellectually stressful situations.”
“Do they seem to learn anything from their experiences?”
“Some do.”
“Then it served them well.”
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Simple Seekers 